Finding a Purpose

“I’ve got to find a new job.” I have said this countless times to my friends. And they say:

“What do you want to do?”

“I want to write. I want to act. I want to be rich for no reason. I want to travel. I want to make television and movies.”

“You do love television.”

“I do! I study it. I understand it. I got my master’s degree in media psychology because I thought it would help me move in that direction.”

“So, what’s stopping you?”

I never know where to begin. I know how to get a “regular job.” I know how to find something to get by, to pay my bills, but I can’t figure out how to move towards my dream job. Now, they say everyone does not make it to their dream job. Some people just have to find satisfaction where they are. In some ways, I do. I love my kids. I love that I make more this year than I did last year. I love that my savings account isn’t empty. I love that I might make a small difference in someone else’s life. I’m a nurturer.

But now, I want to do something else. I want to publish my book. I want the right person to see my play and take it to the screen. I want to be in a casting room. I want to be in a writer’s room. I want to make thousands and millions of people laugh. I want to call the shots for a network (I can always tell how long new shows are going to last or if they’ll even get picked up).

I’ve had some experience. I’ve been a few indie films. I was a writer and producer for a children’s television show (dream come true). My play has won and been nominated for awards. I’ve gotten to direct shows. I’ve been on stage. I’ve performed comedy in front of a paying audience. I have done some things.

But now…

It’s time to take it all to the next level. They say the fear of looking stupid is one of the top killers of dreams. I’m on a mission to rid myself of that fear.

Step 1?